Came upon these two encourging quotes below.
"Give yourself a good cry if you need it.. Then concentrate on the good things that you still have in your life."
"In life, if you are not moving forward, you are actually moving backward."
http://www.helium.com/items/1138727-moving-forwards-in-life-with-life
Yea, now come to think about it, I'd spent too many days pitying myself. Hiding in my room and crying my eyes out. Even more stupid to take leave to make my already-tiny-eyes punier. Wasted my precious leaves. Duh.
Warning. This entry is going to be full of complains and angry words. Just wanted to voice out all my unhappiness once and for all instead of moping around.
My boss and Mr B have been very kind to me. I tried to stay strong for the first few days, and ended up losing control. I felt damn shitty and useless. Felt like an overgrown crybaby too.
I'm still pissed about the whole incident. And I really want to let this out.
Felt very stupid to be doing so much when the other doesn't even give a damn about it. I can't go to this place cuz your ex-gf and you went before. I can't do that cuz you're tired. I can't do so many freaking things just coz of your laziness and past. And what has ur ex got to do with me? Do I have to pay for what you and her did in the past?? I broke just one promise whereas you broke so many promises. And you just amplified my one mistake into the main reason for the unhappiness between us. So unfair and hurtful. Besides, I broke that one promise cuz you broke yours first and you'd gone overboard. HRMF!!! I should have known you were going backward instead of forward. And all those craps you that night, just exposed all the true colours in you. Who says you need HDTV to see the real colours?
Seriously, don't talk about "sincere words" when you don't even mean any single of them. Not explaining your actions but just with silence? Unless you treat your friend this way, I would say your actions speak of cowardice. Or just simply "bo-chup-ness". And don't tell your friends what are the right things to do. Cuz you don't even do them yourself. Do what you preach. Oh and I was wondering.. You don't stop your friends from being too close with many girls when they're in a relationship.. I wonder if you would do that to me behind my back too... Hmm.
Oh man. I just simply can't believe what he told me and his actions that night. Simply unforgivable. After that day, I just threw away everything, literally and physically.
After this ordeal, I'm really grateful for people standing by me. Godmommy, Boss C, Mr B and my daddy. I know I really should have really listen to your advice, especially Daddy and Mr B. Haha... But I know I have no regrets cuz I'd done nothing wrong. But maybe just not taking in their advices. Ha~
Haha. Speaking about my dad, I was waiting for lift with him one day. And there was a mother carrying her baby girl in front of us. Then he looked at him wistfully and said, "Ahh.. So cute."
My reply was, "Aiyo.. Which baby isn't cute? So fat and chubby."
Him: Ya. Hehe.
Me: Look at me, I'm cute also right?
Him: *Snorted* You?! Yours is FAT!!
Me: *Angry* WEI!! I was borned FAT okay!! When I first landed on Earth, I was FAT! This one is inborn one! No cure one.
Him: Who say one? Last time your face is sharp one.
Me: Cuz you never feed me enough!!
Him: *The lift door opened and he went into the lift, looked at the baby and smiled*
Him: Cute girl~ *smiles at the baby girl and her mother*
And he got that longingness in his eyes. I walked in and turned around and rolled my eyes until I can see my sockets.
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Oh, I used to have many differences with this colleague of mine right. And guess what, we are actually talking now. Haha~~ Alot of unexpected events happened to me too.
Had a gathering with my lovely cousins yesterday. Had loads of fun and laughter about the "Urine Specimen Cup" and the "Fart Extinguisher". Lol~~ I wish time could really speed up now. Cuz I feel very tired of my current life. Haha. As in besides working, I'm basically rotting. I need to enroll myself in something. Oh anyone wanna learn zither??? Aye.. Hope that my application next year can get through.. HMm. Oh! And I'd graduated and passed my course with flying colours!! Going to get my certificate with my coursemates soon. Got 7 A's and a sickening B+ if I'm not wrong.. :( Hehe~~
Oh ya, went prawning with them a few weeks back. As usual, had a lot of laughing sessions and "arguments". Sort of hoping I still get to attend classes with them... *_*
Btw, anyone know how to make a DIY pigeon-hole shelf with a door? I want to put ALL the kitties I got from the McD Happy Meals! 36 of them! :D
Argh. My right eye is twitching the whole day today. Does it mean something bad or good is going to happen? O_O
Zzz. Alright. Bedtime soon. Ciaoz!
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